I Won!!! I Really Did!!!

Do you remember when I entered the contest at Grosgrain? It was sponsored by Becky. You can go look at her shop and her blog. Both are really neat! She makes some of the most gorgeous jewelry!

I had a post about the beautiful jewelry. I really wanted it too! I sat and dreamt about it. How it would look with my work clothes. I talked LJ's ear off about it. I showed her Becky's shop and everything. I had my fingers, toes, everything crossed. I was like a little kid!

And I won! I just found out. I went to go read Grosgrain before I left for work. Trying to keep up on my blog reading. I was looking over on the sidebar, and there was the link to the winner. I clicked on it and there it was...The Blond! I am so excited! You see, I never win a thing. So this is pretty exciting for me! Today is going to be a good day. I can just tell! Thank you Kathleen and Becky!!! XOXO

Sunday Surprise

When I was little, my mom used to buy Nestle Banana flavored powder. From the Price Club. The HUGE can! You mix it with milk. It's just like having strawberry milk. But it's banana flavored. I LOVED the stuff! I used to drink it all the time. I wasn't a chocolate milk kinda kid. That was my brother.

I liked banana milk. I used to have it after school. And when I would get upset. During my parents' divorce, I drank my way through cans of the stuff! As I got older, it was still my "go to" when I was upset. I would pull out the can and the biggest glass I could find. That was my thing. Then a couple of years ago, I couldn't find it at the store. I was upset. I searched everywhere. I never found it!

Today, I needed some groceries. Mostly just my oatmeal, tuna, crackers, etc. I am really trying to turn a new leaf here. As I was searching for some things that my bestie told me to try, I found it! My banana flavored powder. The stuff I have always loved! It wasn't in a can, like in the good old days. It was in a plastic tub. But who cares? I found it!

But I bought it. And I was so excited to come home and try it. As soon as I got in the door, I poured me some milk. Added my banana powder and just fell back in love again! I'm so glad that I found it. I know it sounds childish. But this is my "go to." I could have used it 4 months ago. But I am just happy to have found it! XOXO

I Need to Learn...

I really need to learn how to be a girl. Because I suck at it! We got to the West Coast a little earlier. And now I have to get ready for this event. It is not "Emmy Red Carpet" fancy. But it is much fancier than I am used to. A friend helped me pick out the dress. She owns a nice store. I trust her taste. And I am getting my hair and makeup done too!

This is the time that I realize, I don't really know how to be a girl. When did this happen? When I was little, I always played with makeup. I would get those holiday makeup kits and play around with them. When I got older, I got into more expensive makeup. I can remember, more than once, buying colored mascara, trying new lipsticks, etc. But somewhere along the way, I just stopped doing those things.

My bestie makes me laugh. She and are a close in age. Been friends since our kindergarten playground days. I was into makeup way before her. She was more of a, shall I say it? A nerd! But a cute nerd. The kind that all the boys liked. She was more fashion forward than me. Had gorgeous hair. But the makeup, that was all me. When we were like in 3rd grade we bought CoverGirl compacts, a lipgloss, and mascara. We thought we were cool.

Over the years, we got separated by miles. We went to different schools. Then I moved across the country. She kept becoming a girly, girl. She was a cheerleader. Learned all about the art of hair and makeup. Heck, now she is a performer! With her own hair stylist, fashion stylist, and makeup artist! But she can do all that on her own.

Me, not so much! I don't know what happened along the way. I just don't! I wish I did. LJ helps me every day when she comes into work. It's a good thing the boss likes us! :) LJ and KE took me to get a mini makeover in NYC. It turned into me having my hair dyed, highlighted, styled, new makeup, eyebrow waxing, and new clothes and shoes! Thanks girls. But I still feel like a baby learning how to walk!

And this event tonight, it doesn't help with that. I need to look nice and polished. I am stressed that I am going to fall on my ass! Why do women have to wear high heels? What in the world did my husband see in me? I am so not one of those girly girls. Please Beauty Gods, watch over me tonight! XOXO

I Feel Bad...

I know that PH had a bad day today. I talked to my bestie. Things did not end well for the day. I kinda want to call him and tell him that it will be ok. But I am stopping myself. I don't want to make his day worse. That's all he needs. His wife calling to check on him.

Work wasn't so kind to the guys. But we all have to shake it off. I think I will send him a pizza or something tomorrow. But I feel bad. How does this happen? That we don't talk. But we still have these strong feelings for each other?

Why is life so complicated? Why do we have to be so hardheaded? I wish I knew the answers to these questions. My life would be a lot simpler. 100x's better!

My Sunday night? I will spend it watching Lifetime. Eating Ben & Jerrys. Because it helps. Helps numb all of this. I sound like such a girl! I never used to be like this. But I have turned into one of those girls. The ones that cry at the reveal on Extreme Home Makeover. Or some random commercial. By golly gee! I am a female! XOXO